Why?..Part II

Please refer to Why?..Part I in the following URL

http://maijaury.blogspot.com/2006/04/why.html

I ran into Jimlo, the carpenter, the other day and I asked about Jeesh and his planet. Jimlo told me that Jeesh did not listen to any J person and he moved to the boarder line of J World so no one would oppose planting the M World plant, he thought that after he proves that the plant can grow in J World he would show them all they were wrong.

Unfortunately that did not work; the plant was getting weaker everyday and Jeesh went crazy. Instead of thinking logically to help the plant and get it what it really needed, he went off to W World to get some fertilizers. He could not go back to M World because he was not thinking straight, he just wanted the plant to grow in his land so badly, that he eventually messed up everything. He thought that fertilizers from W World would not be so different from M World’s; you can always flip the letter W and it would be an M!!

Those fertilizers did not help the plant grow at all, it only made it weaker. And one day the plant talked to Jeesh and asked him to return her to M World, Jeesh cried because he did not want to loose it and did not want to loose. After few days of not listening to the plant, Jeesh admitted defeat and sent the plant back to M World, because he did not want to watch it die!

Jeedo and the Bird House

Oh J World..
I miss J World..

I had to go back there because I heard that one of my J friends was failing continuously in building a small bird house on one of the trees in his back yard!

Jeedo has one of those little houses in J World with a lovely back yard. Many J birds have settled in his back yard because he takes good care of it and always makes sure it is clean, smells good, and colorful. So he thought why not build a little bird house for them on one of the big oak trees he has in the yard.

He gathered all the wood and nails needed to build this bird house and began the work. After settling the base of the house on one of the big branches, one of the birds passed by and shit on it!

Jeedo now knew he had to get another wooden base for the house, and that is what he did. Again while building the house, two birds came along and shit again on the wood. Jeedo got a bit angry and started all over. For the third time, the birds came and shit on the uncompleted wooden house while Jeedo was trying to build it! This went on and on and on…

Jeedo got disappointed, he was trying to make this house for them and they kept shitting on it. He didn’t understand, didn’t they want the house?! He was building it so he and the birds can enjoy it together, he wanted to put water and food in it for them every day. He was trying to make a positive move, and they surely didn’t help with all their negative attitude.

At the moment, Jeedo is still trying to build it but I think one day he will quit. What do you think?

Happy Birthday to my ego

As a very young girl I used to hear the phrase 'Its your day' in my birthday alot, and I interpreted it literally. I used to think that in your birthday you get to do or say anything you want and break any rule you want.

I remember some of the things I did under this assumption. I left home one early morning with an apple and a bottle of water wrapped in a small blanket and tied to a long wooden stick just like in cartoons. I wanted to discover a part of the valley in the neighborhood. I didn't even tell my mom where I was going because it was 'my' day.

In another birthday, I slept under the mirrors of the solar system we have on the roof. I just wondered how it would feel to lay there. I took my blanket up to the roof and put it there and lied down for a couple of hours. A third one I remember is when I shouted at a girl I hated at school infront of everyone. I told her how much I didn't like her and thought she was not Nice. I thought it was my right to do so, after all it was my birthday.

As I grew up to teen-age I stopped that ofcourse. But this time I got back the feeling and I decided I will try to relive that feeling again. To think that I can break any rule in my birthday to feel the freedom of it.

Unfortunately, this time was different. I could not do it. This time rules were not put for me to follow as when I was a little girl. This time I was the one stopping me from doing what I want. As an adult you discover that you put the rules. What time and people have imposed on me throughout the years is reflected in all the rules I put for myself.

This time to my ache, it was not my parents stopping me. It is me. It is my ego.